So I’ve been in the hospital for 4 days having an adrenal crisis after a recent diagnosis of Addison’s disease. It’s been hell to say the least being stuck in a tiny room while my son is home sick and my daughter experiences her most stressful week before her big show and my husband tries to juggle it all. So as per usual I take to writing to get my feeling out. I call the below “Hospital”
HOSPITAL
Laid out in a bed for hours on end
Tossing and turning miserably
Holes in my skin where my life lines begin
Something has taken over me
My body has changed in mysterious ways
When will it come back to find me
These curves are not mine Wrapped in hospital vine
I do not recognize the woman beside me
Days have gone by I’m complacent inside
The world keeps on turning around me
Here I lie while my fingers you pry
Pushing your drugs in the roots of my thighs
Buttons I push for your substance to nourish
For the poison you say will cure me
Sicker I get, laid out in my sweat
Please take me outside so I can get back to my shit
I do not belong in the walls you have confined me
Just one breathe of fresh air, will get me there
But you suck me back into sterile atmosphere
Say without what you offer I’d be dead in the gutter
But this is where you intend to hypnotize me
Battered and bruised, swollen and bemused
I do not recognize me
The deed has been done, you have had your fun
Another patient for your scores and your puns
Come back soon. when you’re sick… and find me.
– Maegan Sheiman ; The Diary of a Sick Girl
